Nostalgia
In 3 days it will be fours months since I left New Zealand. I think about that place every single day. Every day I browse through pictures, looking back at good memories from the best year of my life so far. What makes me sad is that I no longer dream in English, think in English, or accidentally say things in English. One day I will make it back there, and everytime I remind myself of that, life becomes even better than it already is.
20
And oh, by the way; in three days my teenage days are over. Yay? To celebrate that and a friend of mine turned 21 yesterday we're holding a costume party on Wednesday (tomorrow, that is). Holy damn I'm excited. Pictures will be up, if I can be bothered.
Pirates of the Slottsstallarna
On Saturday we had an awesome kick off at work, Slottsstallarna (the student pub at campus) with a pirate theme. It was probably one of the absolute best costume parties I've ever been to with great people, happy atmosphere and a lot of alcohol. Here are some pictures (borrowed from Facebook from Safi Sabuni & Veronica Wilhelmsen).
tired and possibly suffering from insanity
I am competitive.
It doesn't always show, but I am constantly trying to figure out how to be in the top of everything. Obviously being the best at everything is impossible, but I do believe that trying to be the best at as many things as possible is sometimes as good as it gets.
Unfortunatley I don't feel the challenge so far in the bachelor I started a month and a half ago. I feel like I'm on vacation (paid for) just hanging around and decorating my new apartment. Well that is not how I want my life to be and that is most certainly not why I moved here. I expected hard studies, long days of lectures and few hours left for drinking. Instead, these first couple of weeks have turned out to be the exact opposite and I can't even point out how disappointed I am.
So in order to get something out of this I have started working. I applied to a poorly paid job at the student pub. I don't really care that much about how much money I can make out of it. Truthfully, I just needed something to occupy myself with. So yesterday I realized I had taken it a bit too far when i realized not only had I signed up for twice as many nights in October month than I had planned to work, I was also searching for more nights that I could work. As I said, it's not really about the money. It's about keeping myself occupied, challenging myself, see how many hours a week I can do.
Due to working as much as possible these last two weeks I'm unable to sleep, so here I am 5 am on Monday morning being pissed off about my so far poor education.
What is my point of all this complaining? I guess what I'm trying to say is that this lazy factor in my programme better change soon, or I might as well start doubting for real whether I have chosen the right or not. I shouldn't have to search my calendar for hours that I can work only because I have nothing better to do if not. I can't walk around being happy about having as little as possible to do. I need a challenge, something that will keep me up all night to research, something that will make me get up at 7 am to make coffee and queue for the library to open so that I can get a good spot before someone else steals it. Something that I will learn from.
I'm tired, angry and pissed off. But most of all, I'm disappointed at my programme and those who actually thought it would be a good idea for us not to learn anything for the first weeks. Not days, weeks.
busy
So I got a job.
Well. Kind of. We get four (+-) night shifts of trial in the student pub before they notify us whether we're hired or not. Last Tuesday I had my first shift, and then I worked again on Friday and Saturday. As you may guess I've been kind of exhausted ever since, mostly because I haven't been working for almost four months, and also because in comparison to the last time I was working night shifts I now have a daytime-life as well.
However, since I officially haven't been offered the job I'm doing everything that I can to get it. I'm competitive and I shall not stand by watching the other candidates getting more shifts and hours and therefore more chances to learn. This week I'm working Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. Thought I might as well work a couple days in a row, it'll screw me up anyways, haha!
Nah, I like the job and I like working by night, only backside of it is the "hangover" I get the day after which is worse than any caused by alcohol. I've signed up for as many shifts as possible this month, so now I need you to cross your fingers and hope that the job is mine to keep and that I finally can start making some money and getting some work done.
Feels so good being back working again!
away from the sun
Ciao!
I'm studying. Yes I am! I'm writing a debate article with the category animals, in which I chose to write about animal experimentation and why it should be more accepted and encouraged. No, you didn't just misunderstand me, that's really what I'm writing about even though I believe it's wrong, but it's more educational to write and debate for something you don't even agree with, because in the end it's not the argument itself that matters but how you argument and which strategy you choose. I can do this!
I chose AstraZeneca as my company, and in my article I will present a couple of deseases in which they use animal experiments to develop different medical solutions. It's kinda interesting.
Elsewise John Mayer, Steel Panther, 3 Doors Down and Eddie Vedder keep me company.
Pic: AstraZeneca
Impossible is nothing
So since I bought myself a trip to Amsterdam (which I've been planning for a year now) I thought I needed to clean up my apartment. I'll make a list of things to be done, and shall I succeed I'll reward myself with a treat from ICA (supermarket) and a lazy movie night á la solo io (rubbish Italian). I have 1,5 hours.
- laundry
- dishes
- bring out recycles (bottles, metal, paper, etc)
Ciao.
Amsterdam
Tickets are booked! Will be seeing my lovely Esme once again on 8th December. Can't wait! Even more happier to be travelling with my best friend. Oh joy!
Dear laptop, I shall call you Silla-Sven the second
Hey party people.
I'm still sick since last Sunday, but I'm getting better and I best be fully recovered by Friday as it is one of my classmate's birthday. It's going to be insane. Well, life in Växjö rolls on and tonight I'm at home doing some studies and preparations for tomorrow, as me and my group will be presenting our group work. We wrote about student's health in three aspects: social, psychological, and physical. To keep my mind working I'm having a Heiniken while studying. And not (pardon me) as tasteless as the beer you find in New Zealand, but as good as the beer you buy in Europe, yum!
I don't really have anything interesting to contribute with in this blog, but I still felt like updating it. However, I will Skype Esme in a while and plan my upcoming trip to Amsterdam so I might throw in some info about that later. Gosh, I can't wait to get the hell out of Sweden to walk down new streets in new countries and cities and breath in new air. I suppose I have the traveller's syndrome, but how couldn't I?
I still think in English time to time, and I certainly still do dream in English. I have so many things I want to do that I don't even know how I will find time for all of it, but on the other hand one should not stress too much about things. They will have to come when it's time for it.
But for now I'm returning to my studies. Feels good being back in the game. My future looks bright and I can't wait to get there. But until then, I will enjoy being a student and living life for what it is, one day at a time.
Friends are the family that you choose
What is more important than family?
Money? Career? No!
Family should be embraced and taken well care of, because one day they might not be there anymore. The same goes with friends. Real friends that you love are the family that you choose. They are an extesion of the family you grew up with, and the one's who will support you through hard times, and encourage you when you need it. They may be far away, busy with their own lives, or seem distant, but never forget the bond you share with each others. Never forget how just they came to be so close to you, what made you let them in and why they tend to strengthen you as much as they do.
They're not only there to help you through hard times, but you must be there for them when they need it as well. Give and take, never forget that! Never ignore the fact that without them life would just not be the same, and shall you not show them the respect and love they need and deserve, your friendship may not last for too long.
Peace, love & understandning. If only all could think in those ways, this world would be a much better place. Never stop caring or believing.
0-week
Here's part of my team on the formal dinner on 0-week. Guess who I am.
Uuuuuh
Wzup?
Today is the final day of 0-week. We're having a formal dinner, and my team (Team Action) are meeting at my place in a few hours to rehearse and to have our pregaming. I'm sick, my nose is running, and I'm coughing all the time, but you know what? What the hell, nothing's going to ruin today! Time to get started, need to clean and fix my apartment before the others come.
Ciaooo
FOOOOD
Yesterday I decided to stock up on food and meals. It's always nice to have a proper meal at home even though there's no time for cooking. I made four portions of meatballs & spinach mash, and six meals of vegetarian bolognese (with beans instead of meat). Today I cooked lunch; spaghetti with creamy bacon & onion pasta sauce, with two portions of leftover ready to freeze in. Gosh, I don't need to cook for ages.
Ahhh, awesome!
stupid stupid
All alone with no tv and a laptop which cannot play movies.
How bored do you think I am?
How bored do you think I am?
home
I'm currently sitting in my own apartment, in which I moved in six days ago. Uni starts for real tomorrow and I'm super excited. I don't really have much time to socialize, answer text messages or blog, but now you know that I'm alive.
Cheers.
Cheers.
cat
Love love love
I have had such a great dose of happiness and love today that I'm not quite sure of where to go. Firstly I skyped with Tash, Tomo and Mak from WSA which was so much fun, it's been ages since I saw them and everything. I love having a new laptop which is capable of having proper skype sessions with, hallelujah!
Not only that, I also had a chance to skype with Chris whom I also miss with all of my heart. How strange it is being so far away from the people you love!? There are so many people I'm dying to talk to, which includes of course my dearest whanau, Esme, The G and Brittany. I think I would have a heart attack if I would skype them too as well, as my heart already is skipping a beat just from being so happy.
For now, it's 12.30 am and I have to get up tomorrow morning around 7ish. I'm going for a morning walk before breakfast with my sis. I'm on a diet now that I want to lose my extra kilo's I gained in NZ, and so far I've been doing pretty good, -3,5 kg's so far, yay!
Life's good to me. <3
trying to find the in between
"Once you get back, it'll feel like you've never been away"
FALSE. It will never be the same, and I will never be the same. Once you taste the sweet savor of travelling, you're hooked. It's an addiction, and no rehab will ever be able to cure it.
However, I need to make clear that I am not complaining. For now, I never want to live my life where I come from. It's a wonderful place, but why should I live here when I already have spent so many years here?
Only hard thing is to find the place for me. My place, where I will settle down and live my life. As for now, it could be anywhere in the world.
FALSE. It will never be the same, and I will never be the same. Once you taste the sweet savor of travelling, you're hooked. It's an addiction, and no rehab will ever be able to cure it.
However, I need to make clear that I am not complaining. For now, I never want to live my life where I come from. It's a wonderful place, but why should I live here when I already have spent so many years here?
Only hard thing is to find the place for me. My place, where I will settle down and live my life. As for now, it could be anywhere in the world.
Amsterdam
So I have a plan.
As you may know from reading my blog I've been planning a trip to Amsterdam by the end of this year for quite some time now, since perhaps September October last year. I haven't dropped them. I've been looking for flights and I must say that there are some really cheap return tickets to get hold on, all you need is to be stubborn and keep looking for the best possible price.
I still aim to go there before the end of this year, and if so it would most likely be a short trip of about four days. I've been looking for flights today and it looks highly possible, so fingers crossed that I can see Esme in a few months. Gosh I miss her. If only me, Esme, Brit and The Gretch lived closer to each other. But on the other hand, some distance won't ruin our friendship, and it'll be amazing when all of us get together the next time. I can't wait.
I'll keep on scheming for my Netherlands retreat.
As you may know from reading my blog I've been planning a trip to Amsterdam by the end of this year for quite some time now, since perhaps September October last year. I haven't dropped them. I've been looking for flights and I must say that there are some really cheap return tickets to get hold on, all you need is to be stubborn and keep looking for the best possible price.
I still aim to go there before the end of this year, and if so it would most likely be a short trip of about four days. I've been looking for flights today and it looks highly possible, so fingers crossed that I can see Esme in a few months. Gosh I miss her. If only me, Esme, Brit and The Gretch lived closer to each other. But on the other hand, some distance won't ruin our friendship, and it'll be amazing when all of us get together the next time. I can't wait.
I'll keep on scheming for my Netherlands retreat.
Virtues
Listening to Tracy Chapman.
Started the day with an hour long walk before breakfast. Walked around, smelled the scent of fields, fed some horses and had a look at my old elementary school, walked through the small community I grew up in. Nothing special really, just filled with memories I don't care that much for anyways. I'm counting the days till I move, till uni starts, and till I get my own apartment that I'll get to decorate and make my own. Counting the days.
Today I'm off to Ängelholm to do some gardening. Elsewise there's not much going on. I try not to look back to much, but it's hard not to miss what I had in New Zealand. It's hard not to miss my friends and my life, but on the other hand I also know what awaits me and I'm longing for it, so I won't get hung ut with what once was. I'll get to meet my friends again someday, and that's what matters, I don't have to live there to make that happen.
Off to do some work now. Today is such a beautiful day, I'm in a great mood and Mom will later join me in gardening so I'm looking forward to spending time with her.
Ciao
Started the day with an hour long walk before breakfast. Walked around, smelled the scent of fields, fed some horses and had a look at my old elementary school, walked through the small community I grew up in. Nothing special really, just filled with memories I don't care that much for anyways. I'm counting the days till I move, till uni starts, and till I get my own apartment that I'll get to decorate and make my own. Counting the days.
Today I'm off to Ängelholm to do some gardening. Elsewise there's not much going on. I try not to look back to much, but it's hard not to miss what I had in New Zealand. It's hard not to miss my friends and my life, but on the other hand I also know what awaits me and I'm longing for it, so I won't get hung ut with what once was. I'll get to meet my friends again someday, and that's what matters, I don't have to live there to make that happen.
Off to do some work now. Today is such a beautiful day, I'm in a great mood and Mom will later join me in gardening so I'm looking forward to spending time with her.
Ciao
