Tekken
Good afternoon New Zealand/Good morning Sweden!
Last night was fun, I went to the airport with Derek and Tim, two mates from work, to pick up Derek's friend who flew in from Melbourne (he's Irish just like Derek). However, we had to wait for about an hour, you know what airports are like, so we entertained ourselves in Timezone. I kicked Derek's ass in airhockey and we played some other games as well, good fun!
We went back to Derek's, had some beers and then moved on to Micky Finn's and Rock Pool, elsewhere? Haha! We ended up staying awake till 9 in the morning drinking, playing PlayStaition, pictionary and just having fun. I played Tekken as well, and since I'm not really that good at games I thought I'd loose, but I won! Derek kept winning over the three other fellas we were playing with, and then I just whipped his ass, hahaha! So now it's 3-0 to me, after beating him in pool, airhockey and Tekken. Awesome! I'll keep reminding him of it everytime I see him! Moha!
Well, weather is gorgeous so I'll just make me something to eat and then get the hell out of here. The apartment is just beautiful, Kelsey cleaned it up. I came home approx 20 minutes ago and I'll try to be done with the food within 30 minutes and then go to the park.
9 days till I go home to Auckland and to my New Zealand whānau and I'm really, really exited! I have been thinking about doing a skydive here before I go, because they have this offer to do it two for the price of one, so I'll look it up. I don't think you have to book it a long time before you do it, and the scenery in the South Island is way better than on the North Island. I'll keep you updated and see what happens, nothing's settled yet!
I'm off to cook and then read my book in the sun. Ciao!
Last night was fun, I went to the airport with Derek and Tim, two mates from work, to pick up Derek's friend who flew in from Melbourne (he's Irish just like Derek). However, we had to wait for about an hour, you know what airports are like, so we entertained ourselves in Timezone. I kicked Derek's ass in airhockey and we played some other games as well, good fun!
We went back to Derek's, had some beers and then moved on to Micky Finn's and Rock Pool, elsewhere? Haha! We ended up staying awake till 9 in the morning drinking, playing PlayStaition, pictionary and just having fun. I played Tekken as well, and since I'm not really that good at games I thought I'd loose, but I won! Derek kept winning over the three other fellas we were playing with, and then I just whipped his ass, hahaha! So now it's 3-0 to me, after beating him in pool, airhockey and Tekken. Awesome! I'll keep reminding him of it everytime I see him! Moha!
Well, weather is gorgeous so I'll just make me something to eat and then get the hell out of here. The apartment is just beautiful, Kelsey cleaned it up. I came home approx 20 minutes ago and I'll try to be done with the food within 30 minutes and then go to the park.
9 days till I go home to Auckland and to my New Zealand whānau and I'm really, really exited! I have been thinking about doing a skydive here before I go, because they have this offer to do it two for the price of one, so I'll look it up. I don't think you have to book it a long time before you do it, and the scenery in the South Island is way better than on the North Island. I'll keep you updated and see what happens, nothing's settled yet!
I'm off to cook and then read my book in the sun. Ciao!
Cynicism and sarcasm
I am a frequent user of sarcasm. Some people call it "the lowest form of humour". The Cambridge Online Dictionary describe sarcasm like this: "the use of remarks which clearly mean the opposite of what they say, and which are made in order to hurt someone's feelings or to criticize something in a humorous way". So why do I use sarcasm?
I do find it entertaining, which would be my first reason to use it. Many times I use it in such a way that many people aren't aware that I am actually being sarcastic, and not serious. You really have to see me do it to understand. I choose whom I'm being sarcastic to; as I am a polite and rather formal person I aim to keep that charcter amongst, say, my boss, family, professor etc. However, if you ever catch me being sarcastic towards you, do not take offense, it's most of the times a friendly sign. Whenever I use sarcasm towards people I don't like, I use it in a way where I make clear for them the purpose of it all.
The bad thing about sarcasm? Many times when I really am being honest and serious, people mistake me for being sarcastic. That would happen mostly when I express any sort of feelings for anyone. For an example, here's a text message conversation with one of my friends from work:
D tells me he's at work on Monday night, and as you can guess it's rather quiet and not as stressful as Saturday night.
I reply that I wish I was working too
D replies: That's only because you love to be in my company...! Hahaha
I answer that I really do enjoy his company and wouldn't mind working there with him right then
D: You can be extremely sarcastic sometimes ye know that...!
And I was being honest!
Some people choose to refer to me as a cynic sometimes.. THAT bothers me because I'm not cynical!!! I do have some things that I am cynical about, but all of us do! I am a realist, because I think it's fundamental for people to be able to realize what's actually most likely to happen, and what's not. I still have faith in human being. The difference between having faith and relying on is:
- having faith simply means that I know that whaever I have faith in may not happen, but I still hope that it will. However, if not I will not be disappointed because I already prepared myself for it, for that was the think most likely to happen. Ex: if my partner goes on a trip with his mates for a few weeks, say Costa Brava, to drink and enjoy themselves. For me to assume that he will cheat wouldn't mean that I would freak out and call him fifty times a day to make sure he won't forget me, or hate all men and become a lesbian because of that. It would simply mean that I am well aware of the risk and I accept that's the way it is. Being a realist is way more rational than being a cynical, because obviously not everything's crap or is about to turn out to suck!
- being a cynic, as the Cambridge Online Dictionary describes it:
believing that people are only interested in themselves and are not sincere AND/OR describes the use of someone's feelings or emotions to your own advantage
Doesn't that sound more like paranoia? The last time I checked, I have plenty of faith in the pure human being, even though I am being proven the opposite on the daily basis. How could I even consider fighting for world peace if I believed in cynicism rather than realism? People that does not know the opposite should look it up before the accuse me for being something I'm not. It's quite annoying.
That was the rant of the day. Ciao belli! ♥
I do find it entertaining, which would be my first reason to use it. Many times I use it in such a way that many people aren't aware that I am actually being sarcastic, and not serious. You really have to see me do it to understand. I choose whom I'm being sarcastic to; as I am a polite and rather formal person I aim to keep that charcter amongst, say, my boss, family, professor etc. However, if you ever catch me being sarcastic towards you, do not take offense, it's most of the times a friendly sign. Whenever I use sarcasm towards people I don't like, I use it in a way where I make clear for them the purpose of it all.
The bad thing about sarcasm? Many times when I really am being honest and serious, people mistake me for being sarcastic. That would happen mostly when I express any sort of feelings for anyone. For an example, here's a text message conversation with one of my friends from work:
D tells me he's at work on Monday night, and as you can guess it's rather quiet and not as stressful as Saturday night.
I reply that I wish I was working too
D replies: That's only because you love to be in my company...! Hahaha
I answer that I really do enjoy his company and wouldn't mind working there with him right then
D: You can be extremely sarcastic sometimes ye know that...!
And I was being honest!
Some people choose to refer to me as a cynic sometimes.. THAT bothers me because I'm not cynical!!! I do have some things that I am cynical about, but all of us do! I am a realist, because I think it's fundamental for people to be able to realize what's actually most likely to happen, and what's not. I still have faith in human being. The difference between having faith and relying on is:
- having faith simply means that I know that whaever I have faith in may not happen, but I still hope that it will. However, if not I will not be disappointed because I already prepared myself for it, for that was the think most likely to happen. Ex: if my partner goes on a trip with his mates for a few weeks, say Costa Brava, to drink and enjoy themselves. For me to assume that he will cheat wouldn't mean that I would freak out and call him fifty times a day to make sure he won't forget me, or hate all men and become a lesbian because of that. It would simply mean that I am well aware of the risk and I accept that's the way it is. Being a realist is way more rational than being a cynical, because obviously not everything's crap or is about to turn out to suck!
- being a cynic, as the Cambridge Online Dictionary describes it:
believing that people are only interested in themselves and are not sincere AND/OR describes the use of someone's feelings or emotions to your own advantage
Doesn't that sound more like paranoia? The last time I checked, I have plenty of faith in the pure human being, even though I am being proven the opposite on the daily basis. How could I even consider fighting for world peace if I believed in cynicism rather than realism? People that does not know the opposite should look it up before the accuse me for being something I'm not. It's quite annoying.
That was the rant of the day. Ciao belli! ♥
Pyro
Hey fellas!
Today is wednesday and I can't for Friday to come so that I can work. Hate having this much time left over, and even worse, paying rent is a struggle.
Well, here's a song that I just love, Pyro by Kings of Leon
Single book of matches, gonna burn what's standing in the way,
Roaring down the mountain, now they're calling on the fire brigade
Bury all the pictures, and tell the kids that I'm okay,
If I'm forgotten, they'll remember me for today
Aiiiaiiiaiii, I won't ever be your cornerstone
Aiiiaiiiaiii
All the black inside of me, is slowly seeping from the bone,
Everything I cherish, is slowly dying or it's gone.
Little shaken babies and drunkards seem to all agree
Once the show gets started its bound to be a sight to see
(For some reason I'm unable to put in a videoclip with the song.. Will do that later!)
Today is wednesday and I can't for Friday to come so that I can work. Hate having this much time left over, and even worse, paying rent is a struggle.
Well, here's a song that I just love, Pyro by Kings of Leon
Single book of matches, gonna burn what's standing in the way,
Roaring down the mountain, now they're calling on the fire brigade
Bury all the pictures, and tell the kids that I'm okay,
If I'm forgotten, they'll remember me for today
Aiiiaiiiaiii, I won't ever be your cornerstone
Aiiiaiiiaiii
All the black inside of me, is slowly seeping from the bone,
Everything I cherish, is slowly dying or it's gone.
Little shaken babies and drunkards seem to all agree
Once the show gets started its bound to be a sight to see
(For some reason I'm unable to put in a videoclip with the song.. Will do that later!)
P.S. I love you
Don't you just LOVE that movie?
I know I may not promote cheesy love things but gosh I could watch that movie every day! So Mark and I had a movie night and he really went through hell and back only to make sure we could watch that movie. At first, he came to my place with P.S. I love you and another movie. Turns out that the movies were bought in England (he's English) and were therefore not able to play in our DVD player that only accepts DVD's from the same region. So we went to the videostore to rent them instead. TURNS OUT we had to be members, but without ID's it's impossible to start a membership. Hmmm. Off to another videostore and the same story there. Bummer! He called one of his friends and asked if he by any chance had it, and his friends replies that it's a chickflick and that my friend should improve his taste in movies.
We ended up driving back to my place to pick up the movies and some rabbit food (nuts, seeds and dried fruits) to snack on during the movie. What else would a movie night be without that? We also ended up with a bottle of Jacob's Creek Shiraz Vintage 2008 as well and started the movie about 2-3 hours too late, but it was nice with a quiet, nice movie night. He later drove me home. Such a gentleman, all this for a movie. Very great guy!
Tomorrow, I will go to the airport with Derek, another mate from work, to pick up his friend who's coming to Christchurch to see him. That's in the evening, so I'll spend the day with some laundry and then we'll do an all nighter with great people and some beers. Gotta love life!
Ciao my loved ones, I'll hit the bed soon enough!
New Zealand beer
I know I may not promote cheesy love things but gosh I could watch that movie every day! So Mark and I had a movie night and he really went through hell and back only to make sure we could watch that movie. At first, he came to my place with P.S. I love you and another movie. Turns out that the movies were bought in England (he's English) and were therefore not able to play in our DVD player that only accepts DVD's from the same region. So we went to the videostore to rent them instead. TURNS OUT we had to be members, but without ID's it's impossible to start a membership. Hmmm. Off to another videostore and the same story there. Bummer! He called one of his friends and asked if he by any chance had it, and his friends replies that it's a chickflick and that my friend should improve his taste in movies.
We ended up driving back to my place to pick up the movies and some rabbit food (nuts, seeds and dried fruits) to snack on during the movie. What else would a movie night be without that? We also ended up with a bottle of Jacob's Creek Shiraz Vintage 2008 as well and started the movie about 2-3 hours too late, but it was nice with a quiet, nice movie night. He later drove me home. Such a gentleman, all this for a movie. Very great guy!
Tomorrow, I will go to the airport with Derek, another mate from work, to pick up his friend who's coming to Christchurch to see him. That's in the evening, so I'll spend the day with some laundry and then we'll do an all nighter with great people and some beers. Gotta love life!
Ciao my loved ones, I'll hit the bed soon enough!
New Zealand beer
Realization
I just came to the conclusion thay yes, I am a broke student that at the moment can't afford to buy expensive clothes, extend my wardrobe or miminal shoe collection or even buy the food I want. But you know what? It's okay, for as long as I can pay my bills, eat healthy, drink fresh water and have a drink or a coffee every now and then, I'm happy.
This week is my last at work and then I'm out of here. My last weekend at Micky Finn's, and even though I've enjoyed my time there it'll be amazing to move on. I'm just tired of working night.
Today for an example
I couldn't sleep last night, not until this morning after sunrise. So I woke up at 12.30 pm, absolutely exhausted. I made dinner for me and Kels: Pasta with sauce made out of tomatosauce, onions, mushrooms, carrots and kidneybeans. Really good actually! So I had dinner and that's it, I'm too tired to even move.. So I'm having a friend over tonight, we'll watch some movies and I might go to Countdown before he comes, or I'll make him go with me. For now I just want to sleep and it's really annoying.
Two weeks left, then I'll be back to NORMAL
This week is my last at work and then I'm out of here. My last weekend at Micky Finn's, and even though I've enjoyed my time there it'll be amazing to move on. I'm just tired of working night.
Today for an example
I couldn't sleep last night, not until this morning after sunrise. So I woke up at 12.30 pm, absolutely exhausted. I made dinner for me and Kels: Pasta with sauce made out of tomatosauce, onions, mushrooms, carrots and kidneybeans. Really good actually! So I had dinner and that's it, I'm too tired to even move.. So I'm having a friend over tonight, we'll watch some movies and I might go to Countdown before he comes, or I'll make him go with me. For now I just want to sleep and it's really annoying.
Two weeks left, then I'll be back to NORMAL
..so take your chance and don't ever look back
I am, once again, thinking about things. One of them is what I really should do after New Zealand. What would be the best for me? I won't do anything I don't want to do. So what do I want to do? I mean, I am a hundred percent sure about the study I'll apply for, but what if I won't get in? What then? I don't want to start another study that I don't want to do just because I couldn't get accepted to the one I really want to do.
A part of me just wants to go to Norway to work for a year or so. I probably will if I'll be excluded from my public relations study. It would be nice being able to save some money, which I can't do down here.
OTHERWISE
I'll stop thinking about that shit, it's way too depressing at the moment. Speaking of.. a rather depressing subject is Valentine's Day that is upcoming. In six days, the world will be filled with people doing the whole PDA thing (public display of affection). Makes me want to vomit. So every hotel, flower store, restaurant and so on have their own little "valentine special". Well good for you! Isn't it incredible how money and time consuming Valentine's really is? Not only do you have to shit money for the date and everything, you also need a new outfit, a new pair of shoes, a matching bag and accessories. Not to mention the lingeries! Well, maybe not everyone..
To be fully honest I'm a bit grumpy today.. I've been given two nights at work, which would be approx ten hours. TEN HOURS? I can barely pay rent for that? I'm just sick and tired of this, just want to work my 40 hours and actually make money instead of going backwards.
Hell, screw that.
So... Valentine's Day, was it? I guess my plan for Valentine's would be renting a movie and staying at home. I will not go out drinking since I no longer can afford to do so, and as you all know I'm single so no cheesy, cliché dinner with lit candles and holding hands. I'll stop writing now before this goes out of hand. Ciao.
A part of me just wants to go to Norway to work for a year or so. I probably will if I'll be excluded from my public relations study. It would be nice being able to save some money, which I can't do down here.
OTHERWISE
I'll stop thinking about that shit, it's way too depressing at the moment. Speaking of.. a rather depressing subject is Valentine's Day that is upcoming. In six days, the world will be filled with people doing the whole PDA thing (public display of affection). Makes me want to vomit. So every hotel, flower store, restaurant and so on have their own little "valentine special". Well good for you! Isn't it incredible how money and time consuming Valentine's really is? Not only do you have to shit money for the date and everything, you also need a new outfit, a new pair of shoes, a matching bag and accessories. Not to mention the lingeries! Well, maybe not everyone..
To be fully honest I'm a bit grumpy today.. I've been given two nights at work, which would be approx ten hours. TEN HOURS? I can barely pay rent for that? I'm just sick and tired of this, just want to work my 40 hours and actually make money instead of going backwards.
Hell, screw that.
So... Valentine's Day, was it? I guess my plan for Valentine's would be renting a movie and staying at home. I will not go out drinking since I no longer can afford to do so, and as you all know I'm single so no cheesy, cliché dinner with lit candles and holding hands. I'll stop writing now before this goes out of hand. Ciao.
Hotter than Hell
I thought I might give an update for today:
- It's a thousand degrees outside, if not more. Every door and window is open in hope to get some wind through the apartment. De nada.
- Erika and Alex are on their way here, once they get here we'll wander off to Heckley Park (or was it Hegley?) to meet up with Derek and some more people.
- I'm making icetea. Can't be bothered to drag my ass to StarBucks so I thought I'd give it a try.
- I'm also cleaning the apartment. Thought I might surprise Kelsey when she comes back tonight after spending the weekend in Timaru (about two hours drive south). Will do some rearrangements to make it easier for five people to live in an apartment with two bedrooms and one livingroom.
- 8.30 tonight is movietime, White Chicks is airing and I absolutely LOVE that movie.
- For some reason I haven't been able to sleep since yesterday (read: I worked till four this morning). When I got home this morning, around 5.30, I went to bed and closed my eyes, relaxed and everything for quite a while. Still, I ended up drinking sleepytea (chamomile) and reading a novel by Sophie Kinsella (author to the popular "Confessions of a Shopaholic" books) feeling wide awake.
Future, oh future
As I just finished watching the movie Freshmen Father, I started thinking about my own studies and where they might lead me.
As for now, I am studying Conflict Resolution. Last semester I took four papers:
- war & peace
- new zealand political studies
- states & nations
- applied ethics
Next semester I will only take two:
- psychology a
- principles of conflict resolution
I love my studies here. I love to learn within every subject, and even though it has been hard time to time, I have gotten through my first semester and I know I will do well in the next one. Studying here has made me realize that I want to continue with this. People always complain about politicians, and many times have I been told that politics will ruin my "for now" great personality and honesty. I beg to differ. If you belive that something isn't working as it should, instead of waiting for others to take care of it you might as well do something about it yourself. And that is why I have chosen politics. It gives me the opportunity to study and later on work with something I am passionate about.
The next step, after my NZ graduation end of June 2011, is to start studying at Linné University in Växjö, Sweden, for three years. That would be something similar to what I do now, but with the foundation based on communication. After that I will be qualified to work for bigger, international, peace promoting organs. But of course I will complete a master as well.
Anyhow, I aim to find myself working for United Nations, or perhaps Red Cross. Who knows? As long as I can achieve my goal, fight for democracy, human rights, equality, and against poverty, I'm good.
Sometimes I get scared of my future. For some it might sound grand, for others mediocre. But for me it's my life, everything I want right now. I am willing to give up marriage, children and whatever there is, to get there. But in the end, I think of where I am now only to remind me that the only one who sets the limits is yourself. Only you knows how much you can do, how far you can go. Never let anyone else take your future away from you!
Except from this, I still stick to my goal of speaking five languages fluently by thirty.
As for now, I am studying Conflict Resolution. Last semester I took four papers:
- war & peace
- new zealand political studies
- states & nations
- applied ethics
Next semester I will only take two:
- psychology a
- principles of conflict resolution
I love my studies here. I love to learn within every subject, and even though it has been hard time to time, I have gotten through my first semester and I know I will do well in the next one. Studying here has made me realize that I want to continue with this. People always complain about politicians, and many times have I been told that politics will ruin my "for now" great personality and honesty. I beg to differ. If you belive that something isn't working as it should, instead of waiting for others to take care of it you might as well do something about it yourself. And that is why I have chosen politics. It gives me the opportunity to study and later on work with something I am passionate about.
The next step, after my NZ graduation end of June 2011, is to start studying at Linné University in Växjö, Sweden, for three years. That would be something similar to what I do now, but with the foundation based on communication. After that I will be qualified to work for bigger, international, peace promoting organs. But of course I will complete a master as well.
Anyhow, I aim to find myself working for United Nations, or perhaps Red Cross. Who knows? As long as I can achieve my goal, fight for democracy, human rights, equality, and against poverty, I'm good.
Sometimes I get scared of my future. For some it might sound grand, for others mediocre. But for me it's my life, everything I want right now. I am willing to give up marriage, children and whatever there is, to get there. But in the end, I think of where I am now only to remind me that the only one who sets the limits is yourself. Only you knows how much you can do, how far you can go. Never let anyone else take your future away from you!
Except from this, I still stick to my goal of speaking five languages fluently by thirty.
Bigger than my body
I'm listening to John Mayer and just relaxing. I'll be going to work in an hour and I'm so tired. Not surprised, I needed to sleep all day after not sleeping at all for two days, to even it up a bit. I'll feel better after an hour at work, I usually do.
Well. This song I'm repeating right now is wonderful, and John Mayer gives me this Auckland feeling. I miss home, only two weeks left and then I'll be back ♥
Here are some lyrics from the song Bigger than my body.
Why is it not my time?
What is there more to learn?
I shed this skin I've been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes, I'm grounded
Got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry
Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
Cause I'm bigger than my body
Gives me credit for
It's such a beautiful song, loving it!
BUT I have to make dinner now. Uh, I really don't feel like cooking right now.. Well, won't be a lazy bitch. Cook food, shower and then work all night.
7 months
7 months since I left Sweden today.
5 months till my NZ visa expires.
3 hours till work.
5 months till my NZ visa expires.
3 hours till work.
"Nice face"
Some random looking pictures that I find rather amusing from the summer of '10..
DINNER WITH MY LADIES
GRÖNINGEN IN JULY
DINNER WITH MY LADIES
GRÖNINGEN IN JULY
Psychic me
Hey.
Did you know that I am a psychic? Neither did I. Until last night.
So two nights ago I had all these crazy dreams, as usual. But lately I've been remembering more and more of my dreams, and they become more clear for every night, regarding both people and events. So two nights ago I dreamt a few different things that I saw as a bad omen for going out. However, I did end up out and my dream turned out to be true. Not the way I thought it meant, but what happend in reality is pretty much the same as I dreamt, which is quite scary. Not a bad thing though, I'm just surprised.
But it has been a good night. It is now Friday morning, 11.15, and I came home about 30 minutes ago. It's not as bad as it sounds. I just never got tired, so a friend and I ended up being (literally) the last people out. We weren't wasted or anything, just sipping a beer and talking. When the bars closed we went on for breakfast, around 7 am. After breakfast we continued to a park nearby and chilled out in the sun, and just stayed there, chatted and got a tan. I'm quite tired now, so I'll just relax in the couch, sleep for a few hours, do some laundry and then go to work later tonight.
I'm having second breakfast as well.
Did you know that I am a psychic? Neither did I. Until last night.
So two nights ago I had all these crazy dreams, as usual. But lately I've been remembering more and more of my dreams, and they become more clear for every night, regarding both people and events. So two nights ago I dreamt a few different things that I saw as a bad omen for going out. However, I did end up out and my dream turned out to be true. Not the way I thought it meant, but what happend in reality is pretty much the same as I dreamt, which is quite scary. Not a bad thing though, I'm just surprised.
But it has been a good night. It is now Friday morning, 11.15, and I came home about 30 minutes ago. It's not as bad as it sounds. I just never got tired, so a friend and I ended up being (literally) the last people out. We weren't wasted or anything, just sipping a beer and talking. When the bars closed we went on for breakfast, around 7 am. After breakfast we continued to a park nearby and chilled out in the sun, and just stayed there, chatted and got a tan. I'm quite tired now, so I'll just relax in the couch, sleep for a few hours, do some laundry and then go to work later tonight.
I'm having second breakfast as well.
Red red wine
So yesterday was interesting. I went out the night before, and when I woke up in my couch the world was just spinning. A nice mixture of red wine, jack daniels & coke, teapot, tequila, sambuca, beer and another wierd (and disgusting!!!) shot. Oh and btw, NOT NICE AT ALL! Don't try it out!
Anyhow, I woke up craving coca cola and any sort of food, so I asked my mate Mark from work to bring me some. He brought me the coke, and took me out for dinner. Blessed with good friends! So I cheered up with a burrito and margaritas with Mark and Tim. Yum! It's 4.30 in the morning now, and I came home an hour ago from work and have absolutely no idea of what to do. Sleep? Join the rest of the crew from MF and RP to drink? (even though most of them are passed out, I think). Watch a movie? I think I'll watch a movie, chill out and then sleep.
The past few days have just been crazy, and my lifestyle is described like this by my friends: "you're so young and can do whatever you want to do", which really is true. 19 out of 20 nights out I can stay up drinking long after sunrise and yet feel perfectly fine the day after; no hungover whatsoever, perhaps a bit tired but that's it.
You see the whole working in a bar culture really gets to you.. The job becomes your home, and I do feel like I spend every wake hour at Micky Finn's and Rock Pool. I'm off tomorrow, so what do you do a Thursday off? You know the answer, I know the answer, let's do it!
But yeah. It's not like I drink every day I'm not working, that would've been a bit worrying, right? Not really. I'm nineteen, I'm in New Zealand and I have three weeks left before school starts. I will not be easy on those weeks, I can tell you that right now.
But honestly. I'm tired from working, and I'm still a bit drunk and hungover at the same time? I can't tell which one it is... So I'll just pass out to a movie.
Cheers.
Anyhow, I woke up craving coca cola and any sort of food, so I asked my mate Mark from work to bring me some. He brought me the coke, and took me out for dinner. Blessed with good friends! So I cheered up with a burrito and margaritas with Mark and Tim. Yum! It's 4.30 in the morning now, and I came home an hour ago from work and have absolutely no idea of what to do. Sleep? Join the rest of the crew from MF and RP to drink? (even though most of them are passed out, I think). Watch a movie? I think I'll watch a movie, chill out and then sleep.
The past few days have just been crazy, and my lifestyle is described like this by my friends: "you're so young and can do whatever you want to do", which really is true. 19 out of 20 nights out I can stay up drinking long after sunrise and yet feel perfectly fine the day after; no hungover whatsoever, perhaps a bit tired but that's it.
You see the whole working in a bar culture really gets to you.. The job becomes your home, and I do feel like I spend every wake hour at Micky Finn's and Rock Pool. I'm off tomorrow, so what do you do a Thursday off? You know the answer, I know the answer, let's do it!
But yeah. It's not like I drink every day I'm not working, that would've been a bit worrying, right? Not really. I'm nineteen, I'm in New Zealand and I have three weeks left before school starts. I will not be easy on those weeks, I can tell you that right now.
But honestly. I'm tired from working, and I'm still a bit drunk and hungover at the same time? I can't tell which one it is... So I'll just pass out to a movie.
Cheers.
Rebirth
I feel amazing today! I really do! I feel physically better than I've done for weeks and weeks and it makes me sooo happy! It's now 3.50 pm and I just came home after spending most of the day in town. I've been visiting Starbucks twice, the first time for iced tea and a sandwich and then again a few hours later for another iced tea. So I've been sitting outside sipping my tea, studying human behaviour (staring at strangers, that is), reading and finished my book (amost teared after the last sentence, so beautiful) and laid down on the grass next to the grand Cathedral. I also did some shopping, not too much but I felt like I needed something for tonight so I bought a colorful, flowery top. I really wanted a maxidress, you know the ones that go all the way down to the feet? Well, I found one that was amazing, but surprise surprise, it was too long!? I might go and buy it another day and just cut off two or three centimetres. My height shouldn't keep me from life. At work I can handle the top shelves and lifting down heavy trays from there despite my height and the fact that the shelf is just withing reach for my finger tips.
Anywho. I've had a good day, I feel fresh and I am a bit more tanned than I was yesterday. I feel like a drug addict who just came out from rehab realizing that life is better without drugs. Haha, that sounds awful, but I'm just overwhelmed from the fact that I slept by night and went out by day.
I'm off to make me some dinner now. If I'm lucky, we might have stir fry leftovers from yesterday that James cooked, yummmaaaaaaaay cross your fingers!
Ciao!
I miss you love! Jasmine and I on graduation day.. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Anywho. I've had a good day, I feel fresh and I am a bit more tanned than I was yesterday. I feel like a drug addict who just came out from rehab realizing that life is better without drugs. Haha, that sounds awful, but I'm just overwhelmed from the fact that I slept by night and went out by day.
I'm off to make me some dinner now. If I'm lucky, we might have stir fry leftovers from yesterday that James cooked, yummmaaaaaaaay cross your fingers!
Ciao!
I miss you love! Jasmine and I on graduation day.. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
10.30 am
Two hours later. I've stayed in till now, reading my book which is almost finished. I'm trying to figure out what to read next, and it stands between a chickflick by Sophie Kinsella, Harry Potter and the philospher's stone by Rowling or Sigurd and Gudrun by J.R.R. Tolkien. I think I'll go for the chickflick, I need something easy read without any deep and meaningful purpose, and that's what the chickflicks are for, aye?
So I'll put on some shorts and head out in the beautiful weather, even though I have no plan whatsoever of where to go. Botanical gardens? Maybe. More likely that I will end up at Starbucks at Cathedral Square to see the sun, watch people, read my book, drink my coffee and take notes of whatever crosses my mind. I do that sometimes. I bring my notebook to a public place, drink coffee and then brainstorm about anything that hits me, often related to people I spot around me. It's really interesting, but it's a sad habit if you do it too often. We have to remain our own life and live that, and not just live and nurture on what other people are doing.
Soooo Cathedral Square I'm guessing. It'll be nice. I'll probably just stay out all day, have sushi for lunch and then head back for a shower and pregaming for the night out.
I hope your night in Sweden is nice, don't forget to drink glögg for me, I just might have some when I get back in five months...
BYE HOUSE, HI SUN!
So I'll put on some shorts and head out in the beautiful weather, even though I have no plan whatsoever of where to go. Botanical gardens? Maybe. More likely that I will end up at Starbucks at Cathedral Square to see the sun, watch people, read my book, drink my coffee and take notes of whatever crosses my mind. I do that sometimes. I bring my notebook to a public place, drink coffee and then brainstorm about anything that hits me, often related to people I spot around me. It's really interesting, but it's a sad habit if you do it too often. We have to remain our own life and live that, and not just live and nurture on what other people are doing.
Soooo Cathedral Square I'm guessing. It'll be nice. I'll probably just stay out all day, have sushi for lunch and then head back for a shower and pregaming for the night out.
I hope your night in Sweden is nice, don't forget to drink glögg for me, I just might have some when I get back in five months...
BYE HOUSE, HI SUN!
8.30 am ♥
Heyy!
I woke up about an hour ago, who would have thought that huh? Well, for some beautiful reason I've slept all night. I passed out around 1 am after reading for 30 mins or so, and I just couldn't have been happier for being awake and sorted out in the morning, about 10 hours earlier than I usually am.
I tried to fall asleep again after waking up, non successfully, so I might just have to take a nap or go to bed for another hour soon to survive the night. OH YEAH, tonight's the big night. The whole crew from RockPool and Micky Finn's are going out and we are getting ROWDY! We gonna tear this place doooown! Haha, it's gonna be great that's fo sho!
Soooo, I'm not sure of what to do this time of the day.. It's pretty cold still, so I think I'll stay inside till the heat hits us (rumour has it we'll have 30 degrees Celcius today) and then go for a walk around the city and to the botanical gardens and perhaps to the museum? Whatever I feel like!
I'm outa here, off to have breakfast and entertain myself, perhaps finish my book?
Ciao! ♥
Sweet Home.. Eh?
I'm watching Sweet Home Alabama, eating Whittaker's milk chocolate with almonds and just chilling out by myself. As normal people have work tomorrow morning, everyone else are asleep. Lucky bastards, hehe! I've slept most of the days which really bothers me. I have another two weeks left at work, and then I'll have a week or so to straighten my hours up.
As I am watching this movie, I'm thinking about home.
The term "home" confuses me. I can't seem to define it. Is home the place where you are currently living, or the place where your heart is and always will be? I have been living in Christchurch for 2,5 months roughly, and by that I mean living. Not doing the whole tourist thing living in a hostel, but working, paying rent and going food shopping. Sure, there have been nights out, but most of the time I've been exhausted, worn out and sleepless. I have grown to love this city, and soon I'll be leaving, possibly never to come back again. Maybe in April, when I will do my South Island trip, but who knows?
So in less than three weeks, I will be going back to Auckland. Sweet, sweet Auckland where I learned how to take care of myself, study on a higher level and drink tequila like a man. How many times have I packed and unpacked my bags the last twelve months? How many times do I have left to do it the coming twelve months?
If home is where your heart is, I'm screwed in all honesty because I don't think I'll ever find a place good enough to settle down in. But if home is where you live, experience and learn, I guess I have a shot.
A countdown is ongoing in my head. I started as soon as I did half of my time in NZ. I'm counting down for Auckland, and for Sweden. Auckland will be in nineteen and a half days, and Sweden will happen in roughly five months. If I will be able to stick to my plan, I'll move back home to my mom's in July, only to move up north in Sweden for further studies in August.
Scared? Yes
Nervous? Yes
Terrified? Yes...
Not only that. I'm freaking out to be honest. The future makes me anxious, because everything is going so well down here. I have a job, my own place and most of all: my studies. I have never felt as defined as I do now. Will I be able to define who I am once I leave the place that brought the definition up?
On the other hand
I'm very excited about what the future has to offer. I am certain that no matter what choices I make, places I go to or people I choose to get involved with, it is for the best. I have faith in myself, and one should never forget that excitement and other strong feelings we experience from life only spices it up a bit.
As I am watching this movie, I'm thinking about home.
The term "home" confuses me. I can't seem to define it. Is home the place where you are currently living, or the place where your heart is and always will be? I have been living in Christchurch for 2,5 months roughly, and by that I mean living. Not doing the whole tourist thing living in a hostel, but working, paying rent and going food shopping. Sure, there have been nights out, but most of the time I've been exhausted, worn out and sleepless. I have grown to love this city, and soon I'll be leaving, possibly never to come back again. Maybe in April, when I will do my South Island trip, but who knows?
So in less than three weeks, I will be going back to Auckland. Sweet, sweet Auckland where I learned how to take care of myself, study on a higher level and drink tequila like a man. How many times have I packed and unpacked my bags the last twelve months? How many times do I have left to do it the coming twelve months?
If home is where your heart is, I'm screwed in all honesty because I don't think I'll ever find a place good enough to settle down in. But if home is where you live, experience and learn, I guess I have a shot.
A countdown is ongoing in my head. I started as soon as I did half of my time in NZ. I'm counting down for Auckland, and for Sweden. Auckland will be in nineteen and a half days, and Sweden will happen in roughly five months. If I will be able to stick to my plan, I'll move back home to my mom's in July, only to move up north in Sweden for further studies in August.
Scared? Yes
Nervous? Yes
Terrified? Yes...
Not only that. I'm freaking out to be honest. The future makes me anxious, because everything is going so well down here. I have a job, my own place and most of all: my studies. I have never felt as defined as I do now. Will I be able to define who I am once I leave the place that brought the definition up?
On the other hand
I'm very excited about what the future has to offer. I am certain that no matter what choices I make, places I go to or people I choose to get involved with, it is for the best. I have faith in myself, and one should never forget that excitement and other strong feelings we experience from life only spices it up a bit.
my soul slides away
but don't look back in anger, I heard you say
It's almost 7 in the morning. Last night was CRAZY at work, sooooo busy and so many extraordinarily drunk people. Sometimes I just get sick and tired of the behaviour of drunk people.. Oh well. I'm a bit cranky, haven't eaten propely so that's probably why. Can only say that I'm starving even though I already had one grilled cheese and two sandwiches with ham and cucumber so I guess I'll keep eating until I feel better? Yeah, feel like shit otherwise as well. For some reason my arms are all swollen, so my watch is actually not fitting me anymore, which is fucked up because it usually is too big for me. Might be because of all the lifting I do at work..? Wierd anyhow...
Ah well. I'm tired, annoyed, hungry and so on, so I'll make some more food and then start a movie or whatever.
It's almost 7 in the morning. Last night was CRAZY at work, sooooo busy and so many extraordinarily drunk people. Sometimes I just get sick and tired of the behaviour of drunk people.. Oh well. I'm a bit cranky, haven't eaten propely so that's probably why. Can only say that I'm starving even though I already had one grilled cheese and two sandwiches with ham and cucumber so I guess I'll keep eating until I feel better? Yeah, feel like shit otherwise as well. For some reason my arms are all swollen, so my watch is actually not fitting me anymore, which is fucked up because it usually is too big for me. Might be because of all the lifting I do at work..? Wierd anyhow...
Ah well. I'm tired, annoyed, hungry and so on, so I'll make some more food and then start a movie or whatever.
Micky and Rock Pool xmas staff party
Greetings from down under
03.36
Today has been lazy. I woke up in the afternoon, exhausted from working all night. And then it took me a few hours to find energy to move, and once I did I went to Rock Pool, one of the bars I work in, for dinner. Well, I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner at 10.30: nachos. I suppose I'm not living the most healthy lifestyle right now, but as far as I concern, how is it possible to when I work the way I do? No complaints though, I enjoy it a lot!
So I went to Rock Pool for dinner, had a chat with my workmates and a few cups of coffee while reading the newspaper. I must say I'm surprised about having such a quiet Friday. It's my first Friday off since I started working here, and I didn't even feel like going out. I went home around 1 am and I have had a relaxing night with myself since. I skyped and right now I'm cuddling up with Erin Brockovich in the dvd.
However
This is not how I spend every day, even though a quiet day is good every now and then.
Saturday: work 10 pm till close
Sunday: beach if nice weather
Monday: hopefully going to the museum
Tuesday: going out with friends from work
Then around the 10th of February, my sister and I will rent a car and drive around the South Island and explore. The 19th we'll be on the flight to Auckland, and the 28th school starts again. I can't wait to see all of my wonderful friends up north again.
Well, that's a quick update from me. Since I can't sleep by night, I'll enjoy the movie with a cup of chamomile tea. Lot's of love from the southern hemosphere.
/Louise "Swedie"
Today has been lazy. I woke up in the afternoon, exhausted from working all night. And then it took me a few hours to find energy to move, and once I did I went to Rock Pool, one of the bars I work in, for dinner. Well, I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner at 10.30: nachos. I suppose I'm not living the most healthy lifestyle right now, but as far as I concern, how is it possible to when I work the way I do? No complaints though, I enjoy it a lot!
So I went to Rock Pool for dinner, had a chat with my workmates and a few cups of coffee while reading the newspaper. I must say I'm surprised about having such a quiet Friday. It's my first Friday off since I started working here, and I didn't even feel like going out. I went home around 1 am and I have had a relaxing night with myself since. I skyped and right now I'm cuddling up with Erin Brockovich in the dvd.
However
This is not how I spend every day, even though a quiet day is good every now and then.
Saturday: work 10 pm till close
Sunday: beach if nice weather
Monday: hopefully going to the museum
Tuesday: going out with friends from work
Then around the 10th of February, my sister and I will rent a car and drive around the South Island and explore. The 19th we'll be on the flight to Auckland, and the 28th school starts again. I can't wait to see all of my wonderful friends up north again.
Well, that's a quick update from me. Since I can't sleep by night, I'll enjoy the movie with a cup of chamomile tea. Lot's of love from the southern hemosphere.
/Louise "Swedie"
